On the 4th of April in the Carmelite
Library, Philip Harvey gave the third in this year’s series of Carmelite
Conversations on the spiritual writer Ruth Burrows. Here is the third of three short
papers, which includes a meditation using lines from her meditations on the
Lord’s Prayer.
Reading
Ruth Burrows this year I have come to think that she is essentially writing the
same book but in different ways. Each of her books is different, but their
preoccupations and purposes are similar. They come together out of the same
place of deep contemplation and their consistent attention is to relationship
with God in prayer.
She
writes: “I think that, in these days, we must have the courage, which can only
flow from conviction that prayer has nothing to do with what is ‘experienced’,
to shake ourselves free from the ideas almost uniformly presented by mystical
writers of former days. Is there not one who does not speak as if some sort of
‘experience’ must crown a spiritual life, otherwise something has gone wrong?
We need to turn back to the gospels and our Lord’s simple statements on prayer.
We need to look around at people whom we know are leading dedicated lives,
devoted to prayer. The common experience will be of ‘absence’, darkness,
nothing. How foolish to conclude that this denotes something wrong, that we
moderns have lost something, that God seems less concerned about us than about
earlier generations. It seems to me we can trust that God, faithful to those he
loves, longing only to give himself, is positively choosing to give himself in
this dark way, this poor way.” (BLG 101)
This
is the way into Ruth Burrows’ practice of prayer. It is the place she found
herself not before but after many years of prayer life. Frequently in her
writing she says there is no big secret going on here, that we start where we
are and make ourselves open to God, just as happens in the opening of the
Lord’s Prayer. All I can do here in this
time is present you with a few of the things Ruth says about prayer. On that
same page of the biography she says, “True prayer is a giving of self to God,
an opening of the self to God, not a seeking to feel God and his action.”
For
her, “as soon as we would talk or write about prayer and growth in prayer we
are faced with huge difficulties. We are talking and writing not merely about
the deepest thing in human life but about its very essence – more, about the
mystery of God himself.” She is insistent that our way to learn more about
prayer is by reading the Scriptures. As she continues, “We are daring to use
terms such as ‘intimacy’, ‘friendship’, for that we are called to such is
beyond doubt for the believer. We find a breathing of it in the first pages of Genesis
where, it is intimated, God was wont to walk with his man and woman through the
garden in the cool of the day.” (OF 11)
At
the same time, while reading Ruth Burrows this year I have noticed that prayer,
and what she says about prayer, are only the beginning of what can be called,
for want of any other word, wisdom. Her books are filled with sentences and
paragraphs, meditations and digressions, that are expressions of a deep wisdom
that seems to come out of the life of prayer, and that probably can only come
out of such a lived experience. With this in mind, I am now going to quote from
her book ‘Our Father’, a work in which each chapter gives meditations on the
lines of the prayer. After I read each line of the prayer, I will read just one
meditation of Ruth’s on that line. So let us treat this as a meditation in itself.
Our
Father
Jesus’
revelation of the Father is unique, and its implications nor merely
world-shaking but world-remaking. For Jesus, God’s name, his true being, is
precisely Father and nothing else. He alone is Father, and human fatherhood is
but a shadowy reflection of his. ‘Call no one on earth your father … you have
only one Father and he is in heaven’; if only we could thrust our brand into
the fire of this truth and receive its power!
Who
art in heaven
The
‘world’, that does not and cannot know God is human pride and self-sufficiency,
the enemy of the God that really is. This world chooses to stand on itself, in
a way of existence within its own bounds and control, and refuses the
invitation to be drawn beyond itself into God’s holy being. It resists with
murderous panic the mystery that is Love. This world wants power over its god,
wants to grasp him in the tentacles of knowledge, wants a puppet controlled by
its own dictates – and this world is in us all.
Hallowed
be thy name
It
is within our own sinful context, not away from it, that we hallow God’s name;
when in temptation and conflict, in the misery of our bad moods, ‘under’ not
‘on top’, it is then that we must struggle to love if only by a feeble smile,
refusing a criticism, even an interior one, struggling to be sensitive to
another’s feelings, to bite back a haughty rejoinder, allowing ourselves to be
imposed upon. What priceless opportunities!
Thy
kingdom come
‘Thy
kingdom come!’ Let us pray it blindly, not knowing really what we are asking,
and over and over again, several times a day, explicitly tell him we intend
that he shall have everything, he shall be allowed to do all he wants to do.
This basic intention we must keep before us and be always looking at him,
seeing what he wants here and now and giving it. If we keep our inner eyes on
him – and maintaining a sincere intention is precisely that – we shall not miss
him. We shall be so busy with him that we shall forget our own ideas and plans.
We cannot be taking our own initiatives at the same time as we are bent on
waiting for his.
Thy
will be done
Jesus
knew what was in man. His parables show that: human craftiness and meanness,
hypocrisy, complacency, worldly-mindedness, unforgivingness, apathy! When we
read how he was surrounded by the crowd – the palsied, the lame, the blind, the
deaf, those controlled by demons – then we see what his living knowledge of
human beings, his fellow men, was like.
But
it is in the midst of this terrible awareness that he points us to the Father:
‘Believe in God, believe also in me.’ Believe in me even though all I am
affirming contradicts your sense of life.
On
earth as in heaven
We
can hardly overstress the gravity of time and the realism with which we must
take this world as the place where God reveals and gives himself to us. He is
nowhere else. He is not away in heaven. He is with us; and therefore we are in
heaven in the measure in which we allow him to give himself.
Give
us this day our daily bread
When
it comes down to it the proof of faith lies in how we view our daily lives. Do
we see all as the holy bread our Father gives us? His pure will coming to us in
this unexpected event; this lowly service?
We
have to accept him in the life and circumstances he has given us, and this we
find so appallingly hard. We want another sort of life that is more
interesting, circumstances that tune in more with what we think God’s coming
should be like.
Forgive
us our trespasses
Scripture
assures us that Jesus comes to heal our blindness, and blindness in regard to
sin is our chief blindness. To a great extent, perhaps wholly, we choose how
much we see. We cannot have God unless we are prepared to see ourselves, our
lives, our past and present as they are, and half-consciously we know this
revelation would be terrible. Therefore we make a choice not to see, or not to
see very much.
As
we forgive others
To
be unforgiving to my neighbour means in fact that I have no idea of my
sinfulness, or at least that I refuse to admit that I am a sinner.
Unforgivingness springs from the desire to feel better than another, to have an
ascendancy, to have rights.
An
acceptance of ourselves as sinners in the light of knowing that Jesus is for
all sinners, that he is reconciliation, is incompatible with insisting on our
rights, wanting power and control over others, wanting to feel better than they
are.
Lead
us not into temptation
This
is the Christian attitude flowing from profound faith. God is always present,
offering himself in one disguise or another. But we are not always on the watch
and therefore we miss him, refuse to recognise him, and see only this
inconvenience, that annoying person, and so forth.
But
deliver us from evil
There
is only one evil – human selfishness. The basis of all sin is egocentricity.
The whole movement of self-orientation has to be reversed.
Amen
Mysteriously
significant is his unique habit of prefacing statements with amen. ‘Amen, amen
I say to you’, stressing an authority which derives solely from the fact that
he receives all from the Father, the supreme Amen. He does not initiate: he
waits, listens, receives, obeys.
Sources
Books by Ruth Burrows
Before the living God. New
edition. Burns & Oates, 2008 (BLG)
Our Father : meditations on
the Lord’s prayer. Darton, Longman and Todd, 1986 (OF)
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